Present Tense

I don't exactly know why this song has come up so often the last few days. I played it for someone on Monday at work as a joke and have heard it 2 or 3 times since on satellite radio. The last time I heard it was this morning and considering what's been going on lately I'm no longer going to consider it a "coincidence." The final straw, so to speak, was today's reflection:

September 29
Just For Today

"When we stop living in the here and now, our problems become magnified unreasonably." Basic Text, p.96

"Just for today" - it's a comforting thought. If we try to live in the past, we may find ourselves torn by painful, disquieting memories. The lessons of our using are not the teachers we seek for recovery. Living in tomorrow means moving in with fear.

We cannot see the shape of the secret future, and uncertainty brings worry. Our lives look overwhelming when we lose the focus of today.

Living in the moment offers freedom. In this moment, we know that we are safe. We are not using, and we have everything we need. What's more, life is happening in the here and now. The past is gone and the future has yet to arrive; our worrying won't change any of it. Today, we can enjoy our recovery, this very minute.

Just for today: I will stay in the here and now. Today - this moment - I am free.

I'm not going to a meeting tonight. I'm going to watch one of the dozen or so bootlegs that I have at home with some good food, then some step work, and a good night's sleep. Tomorrow's FRIDAY. Woop!

Miss you, Pon.