"Some of us come into recovery with the impression that life’s
hardships are a series of cosmic tests designed to teach us something.
This belief is readily apparent when something traumatic happens and we
wail, “My Higher Power is testing me!” We’re convinced that it’s a test
of our recovery when someone offers us drugs, or a test of our character
when faced with a situation where we could do something unprincipled
without getting caught. We may even think it’s a test of our faith when
we’re in great pain over a tragedy in our lives.
But a loving Higher Power doesn’t test our recovery, our
character, or our faith. Life just happens, and sometimes it hurts. Many
of us have lost love through no fault of our own. Some of us have lost
all of our material wealth. A few of us have even grieved the loss of
our own children. Life can be terribly painful at times, but the pain is
not inflicted on us by our Higher Power. Rather, that Power is
constantly by our sides, ready to carry us if we can’t walk by
ourselves. There is no harm that life can do us that the God of our
understanding can’t heal."
This isn't a test. Life happens. My good friend's nephew died today. He was 18 years old. No drugs. No car accident. He had a congenital heart condition, passed out at work, and died on the way to the hospital. Sometimes there is no rhyme or reason why things happen. God doesn't test us. Life happens and sometimes it hurts. That statement is easier to say than to live. Sigh.
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