Hmm.
I don't think the X means what you thought, Steve.
Then again, neither does this...
Thursday, July 30, 2015
The opposite
Hmm.
I don't think the X means what you thought, Steve.
Then again, neither does this...
Monday, July 27, 2015
Decorating
It's not easy decorating a house: Wall paint colors, wood trim paint colors, ceiling paint colors, bedroom carpets, floor stain colors, wood trim stain colors, door stain colors are all child's play compared to actual decorating...
O M G
There is no price listed for any of the items, but I have a room with 12 foot ceilings that I'm pretty sure this guy is going to call home!
- Furniture is a big deal. Most of this stuff can't be returned. You put down a deposit and you own that shit (even though it takes 8-10 weeks to show up). If the room has stained wood trim then you need to match the furniture to that color. This isn't for the faint of heart. My suggestion is to bring a board that has already been stained with you because, as I mentioned earlier, you own it once you pay the deposit.
- Lighting and I don't mean lamps. I understand that the occasional lamp is necessary on an end table or in a corner somewhere, but I'm talking about installed fixtures like wall sconces, chandeliers, and vanity lights. Oh yeah, it's a house so don't forget that there is also lighting outside now...
- Bathroom mirrors - with a frame or without a frame? Size? Shape?
- Shower door systems - swinging or sliding?
- The front door color -inside and out
- Tile
- Hardware - brass, chrome, nickel, or bronze?
- Window treatments - it's a house so there are many rooms. Is everything the same or do you mix it up? Blinds, sheers, shades, drapes, valances, swags, jabots, cornices, rods, and hardware
- Switches, outlets, and their associated plates
- Outdoor furniture - on the patio, by the pool, in a gazebo thingy
- Things to hang on the walls - pictures or paintings? More mirrors here and there?
O M G
There is no price listed for any of the items, but I have a room with 12 foot ceilings that I'm pretty sure this guy is going to call home!
Thursday, July 23, 2015
Kaia
The baby is a healthy weight of almost 9 pounds and she measures 22 inches long. I received my pictures hours before they hit facebook hah. Her Mom is in more than a little pain and Dad is running on zero sleep for almost 3 days. They are happy and exhausted new parents... get used to it guys :)
He called me after she gave birth and we spoke about the delivery. I won't go into detail, but it was very emotional. He described to me the feelings of holding his daughter for the first time and how grateful he is to have this life vs his old one. We cried together, called each other pussies, and got off the phone.
Afterwards, my mind was going in a bunch of different directions and the tears wouldn't stop. I kept crying for a while. Now, please understand that I'm happy for my friends. They deserve their family unit and a healthy baby girl. With that said, for the first time in a long while I'm envious of someone. I yearn for what they have. I've spoken to him about this before. He knows I was crushed when what I believed was going to be my little family broke up 8 months ago. Yes, yes... Mia Khalifa and all that goes along with being single have some very good points. Unfortunately, like most distractions, the lift to your spirit doesn't last very long. In the moment there is usually nowhere that I'd rather be, but that type of feeling doesn't provide any lasting emotional buoyancy.
Straight and simple: My friend has his own little family now and I wanted that with her. Arguments or differences of opinion aside, her voice, her smile, her love, etc gave me everything I needed to face the world and kick it's ass. The idea of holding my child with her eyes came flooding back to me. I cried and cried. I went to the new house and sat by the pool, listened to some music, and just let it all out. Sigh.
Eventually I got up and walked around my house. It's beautiful, inside and out. It's almost fully painted now and everything is coming together. Soon I'll be taking delivery of furniture and moving my clothes in to my new home. That made me smile.
He called me after she gave birth and we spoke about the delivery. I won't go into detail, but it was very emotional. He described to me the feelings of holding his daughter for the first time and how grateful he is to have this life vs his old one. We cried together, called each other pussies, and got off the phone.
Afterwards, my mind was going in a bunch of different directions and the tears wouldn't stop. I kept crying for a while. Now, please understand that I'm happy for my friends. They deserve their family unit and a healthy baby girl. With that said, for the first time in a long while I'm envious of someone. I yearn for what they have. I've spoken to him about this before. He knows I was crushed when what I believed was going to be my little family broke up 8 months ago. Yes, yes... Mia Khalifa and all that goes along with being single have some very good points. Unfortunately, like most distractions, the lift to your spirit doesn't last very long. In the moment there is usually nowhere that I'd rather be, but that type of feeling doesn't provide any lasting emotional buoyancy.
Straight and simple: My friend has his own little family now and I wanted that with her. Arguments or differences of opinion aside, her voice, her smile, her love, etc gave me everything I needed to face the world and kick it's ass. The idea of holding my child with her eyes came flooding back to me. I cried and cried. I went to the new house and sat by the pool, listened to some music, and just let it all out. Sigh.
Eventually I got up and walked around my house. It's beautiful, inside and out. It's almost fully painted now and everything is coming together. Soon I'll be taking delivery of furniture and moving my clothes in to my new home. That made me smile.
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
Lets get ready to rumble
My friends are having a baby today... actually right now (as I type this)
The guy sends me a text, "The baby is coming she's pushing nuts"
Then he sends me this link
Hilarious
The guy sends me a text, "The baby is coming she's pushing nuts"
Then he sends me this link
Hilarious
Bad dreams vs nightmares
What is a nightmare? The connotation is something frightening when referring to a dream, but it's merely something unpleasant if used when referring to bad service at a restaurant. ::shrugs::
Last night I had an unpleasant dream. It was an odd dream in that I was aware of what was going on, but could not control my actions or my words to affect any outcome. In the dream I wanted to write a note to someone, but could not control the words that wound up being left behind on the paper. I tried to make a phone call to someone, but could not locate the person's name in my contacts. I wanted to say certain things to someone, but could not make those words come out of my mouth. By the end of the dream I was so upset and frustrated that I started crying (in my dream).
I've had similar situations in my life where all options were taken away from me. That time of my life was truly a nightmare...
Last night I had an unpleasant dream. It was an odd dream in that I was aware of what was going on, but could not control my actions or my words to affect any outcome. In the dream I wanted to write a note to someone, but could not control the words that wound up being left behind on the paper. I tried to make a phone call to someone, but could not locate the person's name in my contacts. I wanted to say certain things to someone, but could not make those words come out of my mouth. By the end of the dream I was so upset and frustrated that I started crying (in my dream).
I've had similar situations in my life where all options were taken away from me. That time of my life was truly a nightmare...
“For us, to use is to die, often in more ways than one.”
Basic Text, p. 82
––––=––––
As newcomers, many of us came to our first meeting with only a
small spark of life remaining. That spark, our spirit, wants to
survive. Narcotics Anonymous nurtures that spirit. The love of the
fellowship quickly fans that spark into a flame. With the Twelve Steps
and the love of other recovering addicts, we begin to blossom into that
whole, vital human being our Higher Power intended us to be. We begin
to enjoy life, finding purpose in our existence. Each day we choose to
stay clean, our spirit is revitalized and our relationship with our God
grows. Our spirit becomes stronger each day we choose life by staying
clean.
Despite the fact that our new life in recovery is rewarding, the
urge to use can sometimes be overwhelming. When everything in our lives
seems to go wrong, a return to using can seem like the only way out.
But we know what the consequence will be if we use—the loss of our
carefully nurtured spirituality. We have traveled too far along the
spiritual path to dishonor our spirit by using. Snuffing the spiritual
flame we have worked so hard to restore in our recovery is too dear a
price to pay for getting high.
––––=––––
Just for today July 22nd: I am grateful that my spirit is strong and vital. Today, I will honor that spirit by staying clean.
Tuesday, July 21, 2015
Monday, July 20, 2015
The internet is for porn
So my friend shared this link on Facebook: https://www.distractify.com/20-countries-and-their-most-popular-porn-search-term-1240694930.html?ts_pid=2
According to the above, the most popular type of porn search in the United States is lesbian. For those that are wondering what's popular with me my current muse is Mia Khalifa (swoon insert heart emoji). She is moca goodness. Anyway, I'm not averse to girl on girl action, but it isn't near the top of my list. Mia has done girl on girl videos, but I've never taken the time to watch any of them because I feel her assets are better used in other ways (insert naughty emoji with horns). So back to the topic, because lesbian porn isn't in my top 10 searches I thought that the wording in the headline of the link that started all this might be deceptive. I started to investigate further and found the following: http://www.pornhub.com/insights/2014-year-in-review So, PornHub must be the source of the information for the original link that was on Facebook. Let's examine their top US searches:
It's interesting to see how the list breaks down. Lesbian porn at the top makes some sense in that I personally know: 1. exponentially more guys who watch girl on girl porn than women who watch guy on guy porn, 2. more women who identify as bi-sexual, 3. lesbians watch porn too! So that kinda sorta explains number one, but lets look at the rest. I found the list interesting because it shows what people are really into fantasy wise instead of merely what they'll actually admit. The list is reality. Millions of people search for these things, but few people share their true thoughts with a partner. So for me, basically the rest of the list is a yes. Role play and fantasy are awesome. If I was a young guy with a hot step mom or step sister then it would be a yes for me. Cartoons = yes. Teens :) Squirt = absolutely. Milf, creampie, babysitter, hentai, teacher... the list keeps getting better hah. The list shows what "we" think about when our minds drift off to that naughty place. I'm not saying that most people would do the things that they search for, but I am saying that most people would love to role play this stuff if they could get out of their own way and tell their partner. Free your mind and the rest will follow - En Vogue hah
Hmm... lets try Mia Khalifa threesome step sister squirt creampie
According to the above, the most popular type of porn search in the United States is lesbian. For those that are wondering what's popular with me my current muse is Mia Khalifa (swoon insert heart emoji). She is moca goodness. Anyway, I'm not averse to girl on girl action, but it isn't near the top of my list. Mia has done girl on girl videos, but I've never taken the time to watch any of them because I feel her assets are better used in other ways (insert naughty emoji with horns). So back to the topic, because lesbian porn isn't in my top 10 searches I thought that the wording in the headline of the link that started all this might be deceptive. I started to investigate further and found the following: http://www.pornhub.com/insights/2014-year-in-review So, PornHub must be the source of the information for the original link that was on Facebook. Let's examine their top US searches:
It's interesting to see how the list breaks down. Lesbian porn at the top makes some sense in that I personally know: 1. exponentially more guys who watch girl on girl porn than women who watch guy on guy porn, 2. more women who identify as bi-sexual, 3. lesbians watch porn too! So that kinda sorta explains number one, but lets look at the rest. I found the list interesting because it shows what people are really into fantasy wise instead of merely what they'll actually admit. The list is reality. Millions of people search for these things, but few people share their true thoughts with a partner. So for me, basically the rest of the list is a yes. Role play and fantasy are awesome. If I was a young guy with a hot step mom or step sister then it would be a yes for me. Cartoons = yes. Teens :) Squirt = absolutely. Milf, creampie, babysitter, hentai, teacher... the list keeps getting better hah. The list shows what "we" think about when our minds drift off to that naughty place. I'm not saying that most people would do the things that they search for, but I am saying that most people would love to role play this stuff if they could get out of their own way and tell their partner. Free your mind and the rest will follow - En Vogue hah
Hmm... lets try Mia Khalifa threesome step sister squirt creampie
Friday, July 17, 2015
Ah hah
The past week or so my mind has been flooded with memories from the past. A thought here and there is one thing, but it got to the point where I had dreams which is pretty unusual for me. This wasn't bad necessarily. I don't hate the past, but the frequency of it all was intrusive so it really stated to bother me. I have good stuff going on right now, but all of these bitter sweet snippets of my life are floating around: My mom dancing, LP smiling, and JMBM laughing. Weird. Some of these memories are 20 years old.
Anyway, I couldn't figure out why all the above was floating around until this morning. I'm in the shower soaping up with Pandora playing on my speaker thingy when I have the eureka moment. For the past 10 days or so I have been listening to oldies music almost exclusively. Pandora at home and at work. The stations have been the twist radio and rockin robin radio. Great motown songs along with the occasional "where did that come from" song. What does that mean? Well, without rhyme or reason the stations will play guns and roses sweet child of mine or the lumineers hey ho or phillip phillips home. I don't know why. I enjoy those songs, but since I rarely upvote or downvote anything on Pandora their reason for playing these newer songs is a mystery... So, music associated with specific people and events opens a few closets in my brain that store dark chocolate (bitter sweet). Meh. I never really liked dark chocolate anyway.
The above may not be blog worthy to some of you, but I'm grateful to have figured it out. Time to change the station.
Anyway, I couldn't figure out why all the above was floating around until this morning. I'm in the shower soaping up with Pandora playing on my speaker thingy when I have the eureka moment. For the past 10 days or so I have been listening to oldies music almost exclusively. Pandora at home and at work. The stations have been the twist radio and rockin robin radio. Great motown songs along with the occasional "where did that come from" song. What does that mean? Well, without rhyme or reason the stations will play guns and roses sweet child of mine or the lumineers hey ho or phillip phillips home. I don't know why. I enjoy those songs, but since I rarely upvote or downvote anything on Pandora their reason for playing these newer songs is a mystery... So, music associated with specific people and events opens a few closets in my brain that store dark chocolate (bitter sweet). Meh. I never really liked dark chocolate anyway.
The above may not be blog worthy to some of you, but I'm grateful to have figured it out. Time to change the station.
Friday, July 10, 2015
Take it in
Sometimes a picture really is worth 1000 words. #climbthemountain
This week has been insanity. I'm on the cusp of either breaking out of this feeling or falling into a ditch. I wish I could take all the beautiful words that this picture inspires straight into my soul.
Monday, July 6, 2015
Thursday, July 2, 2015
I'm not sayin... I'm just sayin
So my friend claims to have gone riding on his motorcycle for 2 hours last night with an average speed of 80-90 mph... hmmm. I asked him how many times he stopped for gas. He said none. Hmmm...3 gallon tank, MPG is inverse to speed soooo let's just say that it was A LOT less than 2 hours. The laws of thermodynamics don't lie, son.
I'm not sayin you're lying. I'm just sayin you ain't tellin the truth.
I'm not sayin she's fat. I'm just sayin if I had to name the 5 fattest people that I know, she'd be 3 of them.
I'm not sayin I hate you. I'm just sayin that if you got hit by a bus, I'd be the one driving that bus.
I'm not sayin I'm batman. I'm just sayin that no one has ever seen me and batman in the same room together.
I'm not sayin you're ugly. I'm just sayin that no one would ask any questions if we took you to the vet instead of the doctor.
I'm not sayin that I hate you. I'm just sayin that if you were on fire and I had a beer then I would throw away my clean time and drink the beer. I don't even like beer.
I'm not sayin stupid people should be killed. I'm just sayin let's remove all the warning labels and see what happens.
I'm not sayin that she's a hoe. I'm just sayin that she's had more balls in her mouth than hungry hungry hippos.
I'm not sayin your opinion is stupid. I'm just sayin that you're stupid for having it.
I'm not sayin that you're a hoe. I'm just sayin I find it odd that anytime you eat a banana you put one of your hands on the back of your head.
I'm not sayin that I'm a bad person. I'm just sayin that one morning satan woke up on my couch and wouldn't make eye contact with me.
I'm not sayin that he's not loyal. I'm just sayin that if he was a video game his dick would be rated "E" for everyone and there would be no codes required to make it easier to play.
I'm not sayin I don't like you. I'm just sayin that if you were on life support I might unplug the machine to charge my phone and not feel bad about it.
I'm not sayin you're stupid. I'm just sayin it's only thing you already know.
I'm not sayin you're lying. I'm just sayin you ain't tellin the truth.
I'm not sayin she's fat. I'm just sayin if I had to name the 5 fattest people that I know, she'd be 3 of them.
I'm not sayin I hate you. I'm just sayin that if you got hit by a bus, I'd be the one driving that bus.
I'm not sayin I'm batman. I'm just sayin that no one has ever seen me and batman in the same room together.
I'm not sayin you're ugly. I'm just sayin that no one would ask any questions if we took you to the vet instead of the doctor.
I'm not sayin that I hate you. I'm just sayin that if you were on fire and I had a beer then I would throw away my clean time and drink the beer. I don't even like beer.
I'm not sayin stupid people should be killed. I'm just sayin let's remove all the warning labels and see what happens.
I'm not sayin that she's a hoe. I'm just sayin that she's had more balls in her mouth than hungry hungry hippos.
I'm not sayin your opinion is stupid. I'm just sayin that you're stupid for having it.
I'm not sayin that you're a hoe. I'm just sayin I find it odd that anytime you eat a banana you put one of your hands on the back of your head.
I'm not sayin that I'm a bad person. I'm just sayin that one morning satan woke up on my couch and wouldn't make eye contact with me.
I'm not sayin that he's not loyal. I'm just sayin that if he was a video game his dick would be rated "E" for everyone and there would be no codes required to make it easier to play.
I'm not sayin I don't like you. I'm just sayin that if you were on life support I might unplug the machine to charge my phone and not feel bad about it.
I'm not sayin you're stupid. I'm just sayin it's only thing you already know.
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