This morning one of the guys in the office wasn't in (cough* Dan) so I was entering the orders into our system. After an hour or so this gets to be monotonous so I put on Pandora in the background while plowing through the data entry. At some point this song came on and stopped me cold. The lyrics are damn good, but his voice is sooo dreamy. Swoon ;)
Yesterday I was a bundle of nerves. Anxiety like whoa... skin crawling feeling... not pleasant at all. I walked out of the meeting after the speaker and spent time chatting with addicts out in front late into the night. It was about being social for the most part. Just a distraction so I could focus on something other than being uncomfortable. After everyone else had left, I was standing with Black Mike ("Are you serious?!?!") and we got into a God talk. We shared a lot with each other and it made me think about prayer. Everyone has specific things in their heart. Lately, I've been consumed with family and trying to grow my business. Both have taken a toll on me emotionally. I've lost focus on my conscious contact with God, because I haven't prayed in many weeks. Mike and I said our goodbyes and by the time I got home my mind was a jumble so I turned on the TV for another distraction. The anxiety was back and I was really uncomfortable. I paused the show I was watching, just looked up at the ceiling and said, "Please give me peace." I didn't need to go into specifics because I had faith that God knows what's in my heart. About 30 minutes later I realized that the tightness everywhere was gone and that I was okay for the first time in days. That's some powerful stuff there, kids. It's not a coincidence.
