Thank you for this weekend

“This is our road to spiritual growth.”

Basic Text, p. 37

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When we arrived at our first NA meeting, it looked like the end of the road to many of us. We weren’t going to be able to use anymore. We were spiritually bankrupt. Most of us were totally isolated and didn’t think we had much to live for. Little did we realize that, as we began our program of recovery, we were stepping onto a road of unlimited possibilities.

At first, just not using was tough enough. Yet, as we watched other addicts working the steps and applying those principles in their lives, we began to see that recovery was more than just not using. The lives of our NA friends had changed. They had a relationship with the God of their understanding. They were responsible members of the fellowship and of society. They had a reason to live. We began to believe these things were possible for us, too.

As we continue our recovery journey, we can get sidetracked by complacency, intolerance, or dishonesty. When we do, we need to recognize the signs quickly and get back on our path—the open road to freedom and growth.

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Just for today: I am continuing to develop my spiritual, social, and general living skills by applying the principles of my program. I can travel as far as I wish on the open road of recovery.

It never occured to me

It never even occurred to me to try something like this. I'll let you know how it turns out ;)

I can relate

I'm sure something similar has happened to me. I don't even own a toaster.

My mistake - this is the worst song ever

 

We just having fun... hahaha

Don't slip

“We must use what we learn or we will lose it, no matter how long we have been clean.”

Basic Text, p. 85

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After putting some clean time together, some of us have a tendency to forget what our most important priority is. Once a week or less we say, “I’ve gotta get to a meeting tonight. It’s been...” We’ve been caught up in other things, important for sure, but no more so than our continued participation in Narcotics Anonymous.

It happens gradually. We get jobs. We reunite with our families. We’re raising children, the dog is sick, or we’re going to school at night. The house needs to be cleaned. The lawn needs to be mowed. We have to work late. We’re tired. There’s a good show at the theater tonight. And all of a sudden, we notice that we haven’t called our sponsor, been to a meeting, spoken to a newcomer, or even talked to God in quite a while.

What do we do at this point? Well, we either renew our commitment to our recovery, or we continue being too busy to recover until something happens and our lives become unmanageable. Quite a choice! Our best bet is to put more of our energy into maintaining the foundation of recovery on which our lives are built. That foundation makes everything else possible, and it will surely crumble if we get too busy with everything else.

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Just for today: I can’t afford to be too busy to recover. I will do something today that sustains my recovery.

 

This could be one of the worst songs ever... lol

Customer Service

I'm terrible at customer service. Well, let me rephrase that... if I'm in a bad mood it is reflected in my work. Today, I was in a bad mood. I tried everything I could to salvage the day. I spoke to people, got in on a few jokes, read inspiration shit, etc... nothing worked. I'm mad. Not just down, I'm actually mad.

Now what? How do I adjust this mood? I have no fucking idea. What I do know is that God help the mother fucker who cuts me off in traffic to or from the meeting tonight. Seriously, I'm a fuckin' menace to society right now.

Wrong pipe

I just choked on a piece of chicken from my salad. Thankfully, I didn't die.

I printed a few copies of the heimlich maneuver and taped them around the office. Hey, ya' neva' know

Tears

No more tears because...

... as a mate, I am not your equal anymore.

... today did not warrant your reaction.

May God bless you in your struggles. You will be in my prayers.

-Tom (the drug addict - cheater)

For those who are new to this blog:

I'm an addict. I can say that I'm an addict to remind myself of what I've done and where I could find myself again if I lose focus. I have not had a drink or a drug 75+ months. No one will ever have reason to call me a drug addict again.

I'm a cheater. 19+ months ago my ex-fiance found out that I cheated on her over the course of our entire relationship. No one will ever have cause to call me a cheater again.

Meme merde

And then all of a sudden...

 

Actually, it was more like...

Oh it burns